Nate answers Questions – Pt 1

“I guess my spiritual practice doesn’t exist. I like that simply because I had started meditating twice a day when I first started 1s this journey of mine. Twice a day. In the morning when I first get up early in the morning and in the afternoon before I would go to bed. I found, though, that I began to legalize it for myself to where if I didn’t meditate, it became a sin. Not necessarily in the true sense of the word, but I would feel guilty about not doing it. And then you get into this idea that meditation, on one hand, I think it’s Alan Watts who talks about meditation should be nothing. And then you have the other idea where I can meditate and I can send protection energy to people. And I was doing that quite a bit because I had someone in my life that was going through some shit in order to try to keep them well, I guess hold them up in prayer kind of thing. But in order to do that, I would spend a lot of time meditating for that purpose. Eventually, I realized I was making it a tenant as opposed to just something I wanted to do. I journaled for a while. And then that, too, became more guilt-ridden because in our upbringing, if you didn’t do something like you think you should do it, then you’re going to hell.”